Thirty Is a problem Birthday for a lot of people......The 30th Birthday is a huge problem for this Mom because it is yet another age her sweet brown eyed girl will never see.
I just wonder what my girl would have been doing at 30....
married? single? back in school? finished another degree? babies....birth or adoption? living back in TR or seeing the world? blond or brunette but always beautiful?
Things I do know there would have been chocolate in her desk draw.....lip gloss in her pocket....flat iron in her bathroom.....yellow tank top in her closet......picture of Miller on her desk..........
I can remember her being 30 mins.....30 hours....30 days.....30 months ......
But I wonder what 30 years would have been...
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Life aint always beautiful but it is a beautiful ride......
Life ain't always beautiful but it a beautiful ride............
Holly loved this song as she did Gary Allen. Found it on CD of his greatest hits over Christmas. Several of the songs speak right to the life my girl had. Life isn't always fair but we roll with the punches and ride it out.
While it was a joyous Christmas season it has been bitter sweet to.
I have friends who have been so very dear to me for ever but really dear to me over the past 3 1/2 years that are fighting battles of their own....heart, cancer, and grief. I just pray that in some way I can bring them comfort just as they have me.
We have our oldest dog "Boo"....16 years old..... she is nothing but bones and most days when I leave for work I really do not think she will still be walking when I get home....but some how she is. Yes I will dearly miss that little stinker ....all 5 pounds of her but most of all the times she spent in Holly's arms during tears and laughter are what I will miss being reminded of each day. She was with Holly to celebrate...all the volleyball fun, first date, driving, sleep overs. She comforted Holly during ACL surgery, first broken heart, nerves of first job, exams. So it will seem with her passing that another part of Holly will be gone.
We have seen new relationships, marriages, careers, graduations and most of all glorious babies born this year to some of Holly's best buddies. If they remember nothing else about Holly I hope they remember how she cherished each of them and how she would have cherished each of these new adventures. I wish for them to realize just how fragile life it and to hold dear every minute that have. Don't allow bitterness for what never will be to deem your pleasure for what is. Don't allow life to pass you by.... live it all......good, bad or ugly.
Most of all I wish for all to remember that "life ain't always beautiful but it is a beautiful ride"......
sit back and enjoy the smooth days but hold on for the rough days and count them all as joy......
Holly loved this song as she did Gary Allen. Found it on CD of his greatest hits over Christmas. Several of the songs speak right to the life my girl had. Life isn't always fair but we roll with the punches and ride it out.
While it was a joyous Christmas season it has been bitter sweet to.
I have friends who have been so very dear to me for ever but really dear to me over the past 3 1/2 years that are fighting battles of their own....heart, cancer, and grief. I just pray that in some way I can bring them comfort just as they have me.
We have our oldest dog "Boo"....16 years old..... she is nothing but bones and most days when I leave for work I really do not think she will still be walking when I get home....but some how she is. Yes I will dearly miss that little stinker ....all 5 pounds of her but most of all the times she spent in Holly's arms during tears and laughter are what I will miss being reminded of each day. She was with Holly to celebrate...all the volleyball fun, first date, driving, sleep overs. She comforted Holly during ACL surgery, first broken heart, nerves of first job, exams. So it will seem with her passing that another part of Holly will be gone.
We have seen new relationships, marriages, careers, graduations and most of all glorious babies born this year to some of Holly's best buddies. If they remember nothing else about Holly I hope they remember how she cherished each of them and how she would have cherished each of these new adventures. I wish for them to realize just how fragile life it and to hold dear every minute that have. Don't allow bitterness for what never will be to deem your pleasure for what is. Don't allow life to pass you by.... live it all......good, bad or ugly.
Most of all I wish for all to remember that "life ain't always beautiful but it is a beautiful ride"......
sit back and enjoy the smooth days but hold on for the rough days and count them all as joy......
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