Sweet Tart kindda life

I have heard my whole life you can not have your cake and eat it too...............well I am more of a sweet tart eater the a cake eater.

How sweet it is to know that I will get to spend the rest of mine and Jerry's life together with a healthy valve the tart part is the pain and healing he must go through to get there.

It was so very sweet to know that we had so many family and friends praying for us and standing with me at the hospital but we had to go through the tart part of knowing the unknown could happen.


It was very sweet and we were very blessed the way Papa and Grammie went back and forth caring for us and their sweet Lily............the tart was that Jerry and Lily both had fights on their hands.

It was sweet to come down the hall of the hospital and hear Jerry snoring ....but the tart was the scary shock they had to give his heart to get him some relief.

It was the sweet sound of the doctor saying you can go home but tart to know that we would not have the round the clock support we had with the wonderful staff.

It was sweet to see the sweet face of "little" Miller born after the tart 21 hours his mom and dad worked to get him here.


The sweet to know that I wake up every morning very blessed to have family, friends, life, love , babies, graduations, weddings, birthdays, smiles and tears............tart to know I will not share any of these with my own sweet baby......but sweet that she gave me so many others to share these times with.

I know who is in control but I still got the nerves

I just can not imagine any one who does not believe in God being able to make it day to day much less watch the video Jerry and I watched today.

To say it was a little unnerving is an under statement........I mean you know somewhere is the back of your mind all the things that can go wrong when you stop some ones heart but to hear them said out loud about the Man that is your whole world is only bearable when you can turn it over to God.

As much as I know with my faith side the what ever happens is God's will the human side of me wants to be selfish and have my sweet man with me and feels very sorry for myself at the thought of being with out him.
The faith side knows that what ever happens God will bring us through.....


That is one fence you can not set on.....you either have faith or you don't......

Holly on the faith side!

becareful what you ask for or lord forbid joke about you just might get it....

A few weeks back several of us at work were talking about sick time....... in my case it has always been taking care of the sick time......I mean I have had two surgeries in my 17 years with the district....(small but surgeries none the less).....both times the doctor wrote me out for a big two days.

Don't get me wrong I have been blessed with good health or at least health good enough not to be able to justify being out of work and for this I am very grateful but still when I see my sick leave total I have to admit I think "dang"......

Any way while we were talking about it a few weeks back I said you know maybe one day a doctor will tell me I need to stay out a few weeks......all of you who know me know my whack humor and my way of just telling it like I see it and say sorry later.   Hence the title.....found out yesterday that Jerry is going to have surgery....this we knew......he is going to have to be out of work 12 weeks.....he was shocked....I think he had been told this but the male hearing must have been working.....

Then the doctor informs me that he will need someone with him 24/7 for about 4 weeks......this is where my world tilted.....now wait a minute.....I have to stay out of work for a month and all that has to happen in my love has to have open heart surgery........NO NO PLEASE I WILL WORK EVERY DAY AND NEVER EVER JOKE ABOUT SICK DAYS AGAIN.....

BUT one thing does hold true they are still take care of the sick days.....

some how I know Holly is laughing at me between shaking her head at my bad taste in joke material....