Back to Foothills............another year

First off happy memorial day and let it be said that I love this country and greatly respect the men and women that keep us free so that i can write this silly blog.....

Secondly I know people find it odd that so often Jerry and I choose to spendmemorial day week end at the very plac we found out our Holly was gone....

But it is also the place we heard her voice, and laughter for the last time.

We have way more GREAT memories of our girl at Foothills then bad.....the memories of May 2009 are just a small part.

Saturday I found myself laying by the pool alone......a pool Hob and I layed by often,  two ladies (mother and daughter) started talking to me..... the converstion came around to children and I got to share my Hollys story..........this two ladies have no idea how they completed my day.

It was a perfect close to yet another memorial day week end at foothills and the toughest two months of my year.

I would not ask that she stay but refresh my heart with her laugh

I as others have been asked often if you could go back and change things in your life would you and what would it be......

I know it sounds unbelievable but no I would not....

To change a single thing would change who  my wonderful brown eyed girl was and I would never do that......

If I changed any thing I would miss out on all the blessings that have become my life and why would I ever deprive my self of those.

If I deprived my self of the pain of loss I would never know the many "children" I have now and see in each of them the thing that made them special to my girl.....

I would love to be able to refill by dreams with her brown eyes and I would love to refresh my heart with her laugh....

Gods Grace is .................

I have heard my whole life about the grace of God.....

Gods Grace is being able to forgive......others and yourself.............
Gods Grace is being able to understand that we all make mistakes............
Gods Grace is being able to love even though you have been hurt ...........
Gods Grace is being able to trust even after you have been betrayed............

Gods Grace is being able to Face tomorrow even when you want nothing more then to relive the joy of yesterday.............