Last night I could not sleep.....and alone in my bed with my thoughts I cried....
I realized some times I miss my girl so much I could scream but the rest of the time it is just a bottomless pit that could never be filled.
As most of you know Jerry had mitral valve repair on Jan 16th. The surgery went great but we have hit one road bump after the other over they last 4 weeks. He is back in the hospital for the 3rd time. Surgery again in the morning to drain fluid from around the heart and try to get him back in rhythm for the 3rd time. As much as I was feeling sorry for myself and missing my girl last night I am reminded today how blessed I am and that God is in control. Some times you wonder why and some times you are shown why. Jerry was able to share to grace glory and love of God with one of his nurses tonight at the hospital after I left. God needed him to be at the hospital tonight to give a new christian the reassurance that she needed tonight.
So even though I am sure there will be more times down the road that I want to scream because I miss my girl there will be hundreds more times that I will want to share his love and his grace will carry me through.
Will I dance or in awe of him be still...........I can only imagine but it will be done with my sweet girl and my wonderful husband by my side.
