Through a mothers eyes

I have purposely not allowed my self to get to caught up in the whole Sandy Hook tragedy.    I have had to in order to have any sort of Christmas spirit.  Selfish maybe but I prefer to see it as self preservation.  When I heard the news my heart broke for I knew what each and every "mother" involved was going to feel as soon as the following morning.  Yes in my case there was only one life lost and at her own hand.....but to those mothers.......it was just one of their children lost and it does not matter who held the gun.  While you can ache for all of these parents unless you are looking a child that lived in your heart.....that you gave life to....that you choose to give your life for ...that was raised out of your love......you can not feel the same pain.   I feel for the moms of the 6 year old for all the memories they will never get to make with that wonderful child.  I feel for the mother of the of the oldest life lost because of all the years of life routine they have that will now leave a void in so many lives.  I feel for the mothers of the ones lost who have other children because life has to go on as normal as you can even when you don't feel up to it......I feel for the moms of only children because never again will you hear any one call u "Momma".  

So as I move along with Christmas do I dare to compare my lose to the tragedy that is Sandy Hook no......but do I feel the ache of every single Mom who will be missing a blessed child Christmas morning yes oh yes I do..........

So Christmas morning I will Thank God for his Child that he allowed to give all for us.  I will thank God for the all the  Christmas Mornings he allowed me to be  blessed with not knowing the pain of losing a child.  I will say a special prayer for all those Moms that are having to learn this new normal.

And I will continue to hold tight to my own survival and be a little selfish......Merry Christmas.......everyday of my life my heart if full of Holly