That for, that is, that the..........that that that........learning

For the most part I make it through the days at peace in the knowledge that Hob is in a much better place the I......

But from time to time I am the HUMAN MOMMA that just wants her girl back......

Over the last 2 and 1/2 years I have learned......you are sometimes stronger when you admit that your hurt.....
That for the most part people understand that you never "get over" the death of a child.......they just don't want to witness you pain.  
That is is only possible to fool my heart or my head one at a time.....they don't both smile at the same time any more.
That the more you feel out of control of your life the more you feel the need to control something.
That everyone has lost............. but not everyone chooses to grow from it.
That while it hurts I am just not strong enough to be angry about life.
That you can still laugh out loud most everyday and still deeply honor the person that is gone.
That butterflies to fly in the fall....

Hob.....the textbook of my education