tears in my eyes

I have found tears in my eyes lots this week.

I knew to much free time was going to be a bad thing this week but had no idea just how bad.  

Sunday we placed a sweet doe with a Holly wreath on my Sweet baby's grave.  How can such a sad place be so cherished to me.....both have the sweetest most beautiful brown eyes ever.

Just miss my baby girl......no Christmas shopping..... now Christmas cookie baking......no deep throaty laugh to match mine and my sisters.....no bright eyed smile at the smallest gift......no dream of future babies while watching children discover Christmas.

I know I am bless.....got to see a child shop for the very first time.....got to watch a sweet mom and dad with their own 14 month old wonder......got to see the sweet face of miller before he gets here......got to watch Christmas carol with jellybean and his 5 year old eyes.........was allowed to pray for two of the sweetest twins I know........

But with all the joy.......I still long for my brown eyed girl..............

Merry Christmas to all and hold the ones you love dear.

Holly the angel wings on my butterfly tree.