Scotty McCreery - Christmas in Heaven (Lyrics)

Through a mothers eyes

I have purposely not allowed my self to get to caught up in the whole Sandy Hook tragedy.    I have had to in order to have any sort of Christmas spirit.  Selfish maybe but I prefer to see it as self preservation.  When I heard the news my heart broke for I knew what each and every "mother" involved was going to feel as soon as the following morning.  Yes in my case there was only one life lost and at her own hand.....but to those mothers.......it was just one of their children lost and it does not matter who held the gun.  While you can ache for all of these parents unless you are looking a child that lived in your heart.....that you gave life to....that you choose to give your life for ...that was raised out of your love......you can not feel the same pain.   I feel for the moms of the 6 year old for all the memories they will never get to make with that wonderful child.  I feel for the mother of the of the oldest life lost because of all the years of life routine they have that will now leave a void in so many lives.  I feel for the mothers of the ones lost who have other children because life has to go on as normal as you can even when you don't feel up to it......I feel for the moms of only children because never again will you hear any one call u "Momma".  

So as I move along with Christmas do I dare to compare my lose to the tragedy that is Sandy Hook no......but do I feel the ache of every single Mom who will be missing a blessed child Christmas morning yes oh yes I do..........

So Christmas morning I will Thank God for his Child that he allowed to give all for us.  I will thank God for the all the  Christmas Mornings he allowed me to be  blessed with not knowing the pain of losing a child.  I will say a special prayer for all those Moms that are having to learn this new normal.

And I will continue to hold tight to my own survival and be a little selfish......Merry Christmas.......everyday of my life my heart if full of Holly

Count every second as a blessing

Time just seems to get away from me these days...... as much as I have learned over the past few years to hold every memory dear and count every second as a blessing some times I still let myself get to busy with every day life to live.

It has been a wonder few weeks in my world.....spent the evening with Hud-man and I-an.   They got the biggest kick out of the 5 dollar toys I brought....... go figure.  I-an (Ian) has this mesmerizing grin and these dancing blue eyes..... he will knock his twin out of the way to play but in the next minute gently see that Hud-man (Hudson) is included in everything.  Hud-man has taught all who know him about tenacity and drive but always as a hug (and a kiss sorry J and B) ready for anyone who gets close enough.

Got to spend a day with several of our kids..... This was our little Ale's (Miller "time" Samuel "adams") first Christmas...... being that his Mom and Dad and personal angel all bleed orange we thought instead of a rockie horse he needed a rockie tiger...... He loved it and it is amazing how he knew right away how to make it rock..... having your first Christmas at 11 months old is fabulous.   Still glorious because it is the first but fun cause there is more to life then eating, pooping and sleeping.
Lil Ale will look at you so hard like he is looking through you then give you the sweetest side ways grin.....melt you.

This will also be Small Fry's (Tucker John or Friar Tuck as Jerry calls him) first Christmas....He will only be 15 days old.  Two hours after birth you could see the love for his parents in the way that his little face changed when they talked and you could see that his mom and dad were in love with this lil Fry in a way they never thought possiable.   You have to think of the Christ child when you see him.....peace, love and goodness all around him. 

We have been blessed with 4 very very very very special boys (their parents aren't bad either)...... I plan to count every second with them as a blessing...........They have made my Christmas special just as my brown eyed girl put a little special in every memory I have.